I wasn’t sure if I should share this with you but, I guess it doesn’t hurt to be a little personal. Everyone has their stories, everyone has their struggles, it’s just how you rise from them that determines the person that you want to become and do become.
That being said, January 27th 2011, was supposed to be a day of presentation for me, a day where I would give my case consultation for my doctorate program in front of all my peers. Yet, that is a day that I will never forget, It still haunts me sometimes even 12 years later.
Prior to that day, stress levels were on the top of the roof, due to financial issues, due to relationships ending, due to the stresses of my program and most importantly, due to the fact that I thought that my life didn’t matter. So consequently, the night before and early morning hours of that day, I tried to overdose on sleeping pills.
You see, I was the girl where everyone thought I had everything under control, but I didn’t. My life was crumbling inside and I had no one to turn to. It’s scary living life like that but, it also takes a lot of courage. I just didn’t have the strength to cope anymore. Even though the event does still haunt me sometimes, I look at the night now as a reminder never to get that low again and also to honor how much growth I’ve gone through since that day. I also look at that night as a reminder that I have overcome a really difficult situation. I rose from it more than I think I expected to.
I share this with you because I have changed so much since that day. I learned to become more humble, I learned that my life matters, I learned how to truly live life, I discovered who I was, discovered what I wanted for my life,and I discovered how to truly love myself. I also share this with you because you can overcome your difficult situations too and rise to be the person you want to become. There is always hope. There is always a chance to start over, no matter how dark it may seem. Trust me on that one, I’m living proof of it. Aspire to be the best that you can be. You will thank yourself for it and others will too.
That being said, any thoughts? Comments?
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